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[(Anonymous)]

I hate this and I hate myself for this but I need to let it out somewhere

there's a metaplot going on in my game and the sign-ups were while I was at work, and before I even saw the freaking post the part I would've wanted to participate in was completely filled up and I don't know why but this is wrecking me emotionally. I feel like I've been completely shunned silently by everyone I've been playing with between drops and this stuff and just lack of contact and not knowing how to approach anyone without sounding like a PA butthole or demanding attention or anything else

I don't know what to do. I'm a mess, I'm crying because I don't want to ruin anyone else's fun but I want to have fun too but now that's not possible without booting someone out and I hate it and I hate myself for it

I miss when this hobby was fun and I was more involved. It feels more and more like I'm getting shoved out, whether that's actually happening or not, and I don't know what to do or who to talk to about it

SA

[(Anonymous)]

I want to note that I recognize that it probably ISN'T because of me, that this is a lot of really poor timing all piling up, I just really, REALLY need to vent about it because there is literally no one I can talk to about this, or at least it feels like there isn't

[(Anonymous)]

rp isnt actually the root cause here, you clearly have mental issues

get therapy. please.

[(Anonymous)]

Oh there's no doubt I have issues. There are other things going on today as well contributing to the absolute panic attack I've been having, though I managed to get it out to a trusted friend regarding that and now there's a plan so I can freaking breathe

If I had to describe it, this is more "the straw breaking the camel's back" than this issue actually being a big deal. It just feels like it never lightens up enough for me to stay unbroken for any extended period of time, and while I'm trying to find solutions to lighten the load it unfortunately is a time-consuming process and need to find other ways to try and deal with it short-term so that I don't completely snap and end up saying or doing something I'll regret.

[(Anonymous)]

i'd say this is a mix of things and i'll address them separately.

rp: i think it's valid to be upset or not happy over the fact that a game you're in has a plot that you couldn't even sign up for in terms of what you'd like to play - not because you were being lazy/missed reading it, but because you were being an adult and working and it can easily feel like you're being punished for being responsible. (not to say that any of those other people aren't adults/adulting too, but between timezones and limited slots...) it's one of those things where i personally think mods need to give a head's up that there's going to be a sign up for limited slots for plot and give people the time in advance to sign up, or maybe post it at a time where most of the game is going to be able to see it and make a choice. if you'd just sat on your hands and forgotten to check or were mad over getting swept for missing ac because whoops, my bad brains, i'd have less sympathy for you, but i get the fomo and actually missing out because of responsibilities and not fun.

mental health: this was clearly just that last thing that tipped you over into having a depression episode. venting is good, but people are going to come in and crap all over you because 'get help bro' without actually offering help/suggestions other than the obvious. therapy's nice. it's also not always available/affordable. neither is medication. but i would, if i were you, step back and go find something you really enjoy that isn't rp related to go dive into for a bit. like a book or a movie or a walk or something that disconnects you for a bit so you can see that this is just a dip in your roller coaster and you can get back up again soon enough.

to be fair, rp is slowing down. most of us are old/working/family involved and don't have the time or energy to rp in eight games with twenty-three characters like we used to. seriously, though, find something non-rp for a bit just to chill.

[(Anonymous)]

Thank you for this. I will say that I am depressed and am medicated, and while it helps me function it doesn't always help stave off episodes like this. I appreciate the advice and think I am going to take a step back, at least for today. Just have the computer on for movies, play a game, get ready for other stuff I have to do today, ect. and just not worry about it. Going dark for a time can help that far.

[(Anonymous)]

Following up a couple of days later, I wanted to say thanks again. Sometimes all it takes is someone saying "yeah, that makes sense" to actually help, and while it flat-out is a plea for validation that was all it took for me to start calming down. I did end up taking a step away and the other stuff I handled the other stuff I was stressing over with help from a friend.

Thank you, anon. Understanding is the best thing you could have done here, and I'm grateful for it.

[(Anonymous)]

don't feel bad for feeling this way but definitely don't post this with your name attached.

mental illness works in mysterious ways. sometimes you can deal with multiple mini stressors and one minor-ass thing breaks the camel's back.

i suggest going on hiatus for a mental health break. or at least giving yourself some time to calm down and talking to your closest cr about game plans.

[(Anonymous)]

touch grass

[(Anonymous)]

get fucked