next time i'm sticking to my antisocial ways

[socksuke_uchiha]

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rl woes

[(Anonymous)]

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[(Anonymous)]

looking at cats longingly

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[(Anonymous)]

i have three cats, having taken in a third who was injured off the street and gotten him vaccinated, neutered, and cleaned up, with a clean bill of health

unfortunately, the other two cats do not like the new arrival, and while it's getting better, it has been causing me not to get very good sleep lately since i have to keep the peace at all times

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[(Anonymous)]

having to go outside with the sun and wasps

eclipse is cool i guess

Re: rl woes - cw: pet health and impending death

[(Anonymous)]

Just found out my cat has cancer. She's old enough that the vet recommends palliative care, because treatment would require chemo as well as surgery, and it's very likely to recur, so it would be putting her through a lot of misery for what's potentially going to be only a short extension of her life.

I have her on painkillers and a steroid which have perked her up immensely. She was happily playing with her favorite toy until she decided it was time to nap in a box (there are multiple cat beds in my home, but the box is the best thing ever, says she), but I know we're on a countdown now until her quality of life dips too much for it to be fair to keep her here. But she's my baby, and I don't want to lose her.

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[(Anonymous)]

i got a cavity filled in late 22 and got mad since i had to go back for it a month later and was told to 'let it wait/cure'. a year+ later, and it's not fixing. i'm in constant pain now and i tried to see another dentist because i have no faith in this particular dentist (and i have an issue with dentists in general w/anxiety) and was told that there's a 'warranty' on my teeth and that they can't touch me until 2 years after another dentist has on a particular tooth. all my other teeth are fair game, but not this one.

so i had to eat crow and call my crappy dentist and then find out i might not be covered for a potential root canal and may just have to have the tooth pulled entirely. kind of getting to the point i don't care, take all my teeth. this side has been a nightmare for years.

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[(Anonymous)]

it will never ever ever ever change, everything will stay the same forever and ever.

there's no hope.

i want to quit.

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[(Anonymous)]

in bed covered up in all the darkness, depressed af about yet another failure

next plan is already in motion, but if it fails too idk what i'll do

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[(Anonymous)]

i hate my fucking doctor and screw everyone who works there.

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[(Anonymous)]

tired of dealing with someone who just refuses to communicate

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[(Anonymous)]

I haven't felt this lost and alone in a long time, and I would not wish this on anyone.

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[(Anonymous)]

I’m just lonely.

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[(Anonymous)]

getting irrationally angry at vloggers that transition scenes by smacking the shit out of their cameras

and not you throwing the peace sign before doing so... demonstrating anything but peace...

or was it merely "deuces" before you knock my lights out? well adieu to you too

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[(Anonymous)]

dropped a small can of ginger ale on my pinky toe

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[(Anonymous)]

Most of the time, I go about my life in a good mood. I'm happier than people might expect someone in my situation to be.

I am stuck in one small room all the time unless I go out somewhere, but I don't have a ton of money and no IRL friends and no family, so I rarely go anywhere that isn't to run an errand or to buy food.

I talk to people online, which keeps me from getting lonely, but I haven't touched another person in years. I have a roommate, but it's pretty clear that their interest begins and ends with my ability to pay rent. They've bought a new car and went on several vacations since I've been living here, but getting them to talk about anything besides their own life is impossible.

I don't want to live like this, but given the state of the world I feel like I don't have much choice. I wish I had a hobby or something to do that would help me make friends locally, but I don't know where to begin with that.

Most of the time I'm fine because I got used to being alone and taking care of myself because of how I was raised, but sometimes it'll be a long day and I become very aware of how completely alone in the world I really am. Sometimes it hurts knowing there isn't a single person in the world who loves me.

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[(Anonymous)]

the moment i get ready to start cleaning my depression hovel my back revolts

i

life is just not at all enjoyable
guess i'll sit and clean my desk smh

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[(Anonymous)]

just had a conversation tonight with a family member about disowning our dad. long story short, he doesn't care about our mom, steals and wastes money, and generally doesn't give a shit about the rest of us.

disowning him is a good move, but it puts my own situation in perspective to all of this. i'm not successful, and as of last year, i have a disability that severely limits my ability to leave the house. i do my best with remote work, but there's only so much i can do to support myself, and i've recently had to put away my pride and move in with relatives, something i've been trying not to do for years.

it makes me honestly think things would be easier for the rest of my family if i wasn't around. i don't want to be a drain on the family in the way my dad is, and until recently, i was supporting myself, even if i was just making ends meet. now that i'm in this position, i'm terrified i'll end up just as shitty and complacent as my dad and be a burden on my family with all the debt my medical bills are racking up.

i just feel blue. i want to get better faster, but realistically, it'll be at least another year until I can get back to my old job. In the meantime, I feel like I'm punching a financial hole in the already financially unstable ship that is my family, and my debt is just getting worse. i don't know what to do.

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[(Anonymous)]

a lot of bad things have been happening in my life recently all at once which is how it usually goes. a couple of deaths, but they're not recognized relationships by corporate so i couldn't take time off even if i wanted to. and a lot of crises at once (not me, but people close to me).

i feel like i shouldn't complain at all because i have a pretty decent income and there's nothing really "wrong" with my life. but i feel really burned out and lonely but i'm trying to be there for everyone because that's what i would want and it's better than isolating myself completely.

i just feel like everything in my life is kind of in shambles even if it looks good on the outside and i wish something in my life wasn't.

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[(Anonymous)]

Haven’t felt great lately. I’m reasonably fit, I don’t have a garbage diet, but my doc says my blood sugar is in the diabetic range. I’m devastated. No history of it in my family. I’ve switched to a super healthy diet and I have my energy and focus back but I’m sad I’ll never get to enjoy the occasional treat anymore. It’s bumming me out.

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[(Anonymous)]

Every time my mood plummets, my brain automatically picks one person to get really angry at. Usually the last bad experience I had, like person I've had a falling out with, even if they haven't done anything to me recently. I end up getting so fixated I feel even more frustrated that it's where my mind goes to automatically, like I needed to blame someone for things even if they are innocent in this situation.

I usually distract myself the moment it happens, but it's just annoying. I wish my brain didn't try to make enemies out of people I don't even interact with anymore. It just makes me feel petty and childish.

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[(Anonymous)]

going through pmdd hell

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[(Anonymous)]

being 12th in line for a library book

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[(Anonymous)]

Two people I comissioned months or even a year ago never finished their commissions and another person I comissioned here gave me the ugliest, blurriest, grainiest (some literally looked like bad YouTube quality) icons they likely whipped up in minutes.

Anon because I still wanna support indie artists, but yowch. I paid up front and more than they asked, too. ;_;

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[(Anonymous)]

i was chilling, reading some old threads, and listening to music. mom texts, "do we have bug spray?" i immediately know it's gotta be bad. already sweating, i grab the spray and scurry down the corridor

i spot the entity the moment i cross the threshold of her room. holy fucking shit. i'm sweating, i'm shaking. she snatches the spray and brazenly hoses it down. it topples, sodden and stupid, into the dusty abyss behind her headboard. this is not over

so i'm cowering at the door, brandishing a vacuum hose with vigilant eyes as directed. she's shehulking her furniture and squinting at every shadow. i'm sweating my shower freshness away, watchful and terrified and