something big going down in clown town

[socksuke_uchiha]

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LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

i imagine you removed me because of my flaky tendencies (sorry) , but i wish we could have become friends

you're the only person around here as obsessed with this ancient canon as i am

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

you might check to see if they're even still around

thought an rp partner removed me only to find that they simply dropped rp altogether, closed their accounts, etc

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

you breaking our engagement off over text is always going to hurt and i hope your marriage fails

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

we had absolutely incredible writing chemistry, our plotting discussions often wound up 5+ paragraphs long each reply because we both had so many thoughts and ideas and bounced off each other so well, our characters always had insane chemistry with each other, and I'm never going to write with you again, because you're the biggest flake I've ever met.

We connected on a cool prompt, we wrote together for a couple of months, and then you ghosted me. You came back a few months later, we connected on a different prompt, and everything was great again, and then you ghosted again two weeks later. The entire time, you were telling me I was the best rp partner you'd ever found, this was your favorite rp, and so on. Your enthusiasm was so genuine, and yet you still ghosted me. We connected again two more times, and two more times you ghosted me.

I just don't have it in me to give you a fifth chance. You always come back with excuses, we always start with new characters and a new thread, it's always great and then you vanish. The hilariously ironic thing was, the last time we connected, you actually had the audacity to say that because you loved this idea so much, you hoped that I wouldn't ghost you.

i'll remember our threads fondly, but I sincerely hope we never respond to each other's prompts again

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[(Anonymous)]

this sounds so much like someone I threaded with years ago. we also had a number of really excellent but very short-lived threads that always died when she would just stop tagging. we became good rl friends soon after so I didn’t/don’t mind and now I know it was a major anxiety and other mental health thing, but at the time it was happening it did drive me a little crazy because she was such an amazing writer and rp partner in the little we managed to do.

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

I don't know why you ran so hot and cold to me when we tagged. You really seemed to like our threads and talked about them positively.....up until you didn't. Now you'll tag everyone else in the game but ignore my character, which is supremely awkward when we have so much CR in common, and have even taken to ignoring me OOC.

Did I do or say something wrong? If I did, I wish you would have told me. If I didn't, I wish you could have put on your big-girl panties and told me just didn't want to play with me for whatever reason instead of just giving me the cold shoulder.

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

I like you but I refuse to be responsible for your anxiety anymore. If you ever want to do anything, you know how to contact me. It's going to take time for me to trust you again. I suspect that you don't really want to, and I really don't appreciate the conflicting messages. Either way, find a therapist to talk to about it or someone else.

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

The reason why I've decided to put some distance between us is because your obsession with me have gotten to the extreme levels. First off, I've told you many, many times that I am in a game with Character A with activity checks. Game tags will always be a higher priority for me than memes and PSLs. It doesn't mean I will never tag back to them (a lot of times, I manage to get tag nirvana), but I will always tackle the game ones first and then everything else. I'm not going to apologize for my priorities, and you're not going to guilt-trip me over the fact you're not the first person I tag back to at the start of the day.

Second, when I expressed interest in Character B from a canon we both enjoyed, you wanted to play with me, and I was fine with that. But what I wasn't fine with was when I told you let's wait until the weekend when I have more time to tag with Character A and B because the weekends are my days off of work, and I can finish setting up Character B's icons in peace, you flipped out on me. You started to make obvious vague passive-aggressive plurks about me immediately after I told you to wait for the weekend (which was around the fucking corner, by the way).

Sorry that I'm a responsible adult with a job and I prefer to get my tag on when I'm off work (or the weekends) vs trying to sneak in tags and possibly get in trouble with my managers. I've tried to be friends with you, I've tried to be cool with you, but this fixation you have on me is too much for me to handle, and it's getting a little creepy. Especially when you consistently tell me how cute/beautiful I am when you don't have the slightest idea how I look like IRL.

I'm sorry, but this distance is for the best. Maybe some day we can start back over from scratch.

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[(Anonymous)]

i always took it for granted that we had the future together and that we'd be able to do all the things we talked about one day. i never thought that our last trip together would be the last time i would ever see you. whenever i see something that i think you'd be amused with, i instantly think about sharing it with you and imagining your reaction before remembering i can't anymore. i miss you.

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

it sucks that your partner thinks roleplaying is weird. it sucks even more that you stopped roleplaying entirely when you moved in with them. i'm sad to lose our threads, sure, but mostly i just think it's a shame that you allowed this person to control you and your hobbies so much. i hope you find your way back to what you love eventually.

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

You've decided to play out the aftermath of in game trauma with your character by turning him into a raging asshole who attacks anyone who tries to help him and emotionally manipulates his friends into feeling guilty for not caring about him.

I don't know how to say this to your face so I'll say it here: this is making playing with you emotionally draining and a complete chore and I'm starting to dread being tagged by you. If I knew this was going to be the outcome I never would have volunteered to help you with this plot. Your justification for this is weak and it's been going on for far too long. I hope you figure out soon why everyone is avoiding you.

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

You’re allowed to not be interested in RPing with me but I’m tired of feeling like you see me as unhinged or a bad person for being hurt that our stuff was dropped and ignored for so long when you had enough interest and motivation to do hundreds of tags with others. You’re not obligated to rp with me but it still feels kind of bad when I see you talk about it all the time and boomerang everywhere and I don’t think I’m over it yet or ready to act like everything is fine. I doubt you’ll understand that it’s not that you didn’t tag our threads that was the problem. It’s that you weren’t honest that you weren’t interested and still aren’t. I’m anxious too and I don’t want to keep feeling bad so I’m taking a step back.

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

i want to be your friend so badly just from what i've seen of your writing but we've never interacted and i can't imagine a reason we'd interact in the foreseeable future.

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

i really miss what we had. i'm pretty sure you've moved on and wouldn't appreciate me tagging you again. and who's to even say if we would have the same chemistry. but what we did write together was awesome. thanks for keeping me company for so long

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

I get why you avoid me, and while I didn't do or say the things you think I did, I get why you think so, and that contacting you to tell you as much would seem like BS as well as overstepping.

I don't know you well enough to hold anything against you, and actually think you seem pretty alright? It's just kind of a shame that things happened when and how they did, especially when you've been told some lies about me with no reason on your part not to believe them.

It sucks, but it is what it is. Hope things are going well for you.

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

I want to stop feeling resentful at you for how I was treated. It really sucks to have words put in my mouth, but I feel like any attempt to prove otherwise would justify what you feel about me. I hate that sometimes I feel like that’s your way of rationalizing not doing anything together anymore. Seeing you have fun with everyone else feels like a slap in the face. I wish I had an answer to this.

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

I'm done trying to mend our friendship when it was you who screwed things over. Blame me all you want but I'm all out of olive branches when you won't even try to meet me halfway.

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

i know you did it because you thought id enjoy it, but i didnt. i tried to make the best of a situation i didnt ask for. it still bothers me that everyone else got to decide this part of their characters, but you decided it for mine. you imposed your own headcanons on my character without my permission. its too late to change anything now, but i wish id shut this down from the start.

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

I've been agonizing over how I could do better for a long time and I realized that nothing I do makes a difference. I'm done. If you ever want our friendship to be anything like it was, I'm leaving the ball in your court.

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

fuck you for completely dropping the ball on our friendship of over ten years after getting a new girlfriend. i reminded you multiple times and you promised to stick around but you didn't even message to check in when i had to go to the er. i hope your relationship crashes and burns.

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

I'm sorry that I haven't been bringing in new characters who would be good to ship with yours. I know we've been wanting a new ship for years now, I just don't think I can manufacture one.

And I really just miss our old ship, but I know you lost the muse years ago.

Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND

[(Anonymous)]

with all of your crowing about being so good at communication you sure do love to never communicate and make it obvious you want to be chased after when something is bothering you

sorry but im not gonna play that way

[(Anonymous)]

That you immediately unfollowed me everywhere and stopped messaging me for good when I said I wouldn't be able to continue our psl is kind of an extreme reaction when we've been friends for over 3 years. I'm too busy to be as present online as I was and I understand that might've frustrated you, but why unfollow me on my personal accounts? Why no more being friendly?

Still kind of in disbelief that it suddenly ended this way tbh.

(CW: underage, grooming)

[(Anonymous)]

I loved you both as sisters and looked forward to every time we talked. However, I had a secret relationship which started when I was sixteen and he was thirty-six. For years, I thought it was true love, that we'd be together forever and when we did get married, I could tell the world about the two of us and the full story of our love.

Then he dumped me for a younger model. After twenty-five years together.

So I posted, heartbroken, on plurk.

And they both decided that since I hadn't told them about the relationship, they could never trust me again and I had to break off contact because it hurt too much.

Fast forward a year and due to a combination of pop culture references (hello, Snoke/Palpatine's treatment of Kylo Ren) and a lot of soul-searching and rethinking, I realized that I'd been groomed from the very beginning and gaslit throughout the relationship.

But now I have no friends to help me recover from the pain and the brain fuckery that someone I thought loved me would do that to me.

It hurts, man.