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spent a week and a half in the hospital and 3 months in a partial hospitalization program for mental health issues. if you’re dealing w this kind of stuff i strongly advocate for getting the support you need if at all possible in your situation. very few of my friends know what treatment was like for me and i want to help educate people i guess

oh hey, i'm getting in to this field! what was treatment like for you? what do you feel like helped and hurt you the most as far as how the staff interacted with you?

good luck, anon! you’re doing really really important work treatment was interesting for me but i’m glad that i jumped on it almost immediately. my diagnosis is kind of complicated compared to some others, i’m sure, but once i felt that i was unable to continue on with my daily tasks with the symptoms i face i took action. full timeline is everything started on january 4 and i went back to work on march 27 and i’m STILLS working with the aftereffects and seeking additional treatment (comment thread below explains, lol) the most important part for me was group therapy. i know not everybody lives with this but i really value other peoples outside perspectives esp because a big part of my diagnosis deals with intrusive thoughts, so checking in and evaluating situations with others rather than just letting my mind run rampant was critical for me. i also had a very supportive treatment team and a good support network outside of program & the hospital as well. i still go to emotions anonymous meetings because i do value the group perspective on mental health aspect and long term group therapy isn’t exactly available around here outside of these sorts of programs. the best people in the hospital, i found, were the nurses and the social workers. the nights were the worst, and i had a horrible time with symptoms at night. i had a few nurses sit with me while i read until i fell asleep, or just talk to me when i couldn’t sleep. the social worker also helped me a lot when i had a panic attack because my job kept calling me while i was in the hospital (work was a BIG reason this happened!) i would have appreciated in the hospital : 1) more time with the psychiatrist and a psychiatrist who explains things to me rather than keeps me in the dark, and 2) to not be treated as a burden. i did not find these issues in PHP - only in inpatient. i am curious by nature and am also interested in neurology, psychology, psychiatry, and brain sciences in general, and i tend to ask my therapist a lot of questions so i can understand more about the body and myself. my psychiatrist at the hospital not only kept me, but also my emergency contacts in the dark about what was actually going on with me and my diagnosis until we recieved my discharge paperwork, only prescribed me medication. what happened to me was horrifying to experience, from my perspective and from the perspective of others, and i think even knowing that the experience i had was something humans COULD experience would have been comforting to know, and would have led me to understand a hell of a lot more once i left. i felt alone, and that i was the only one experiencing this. it was very scary. i would have also appreciated more support re: aftercare in PHP. i was given one refill of my prescription and that’s really it. my GP doctor currently prescribes my mental health meds and i’m very fortunate for that but she’d like me to seek more specialized med mgmt now, and finding a psychiatrist that 1) is in my area 2) has appointments available that aren’t 4 months away 3) takes insurance!! holy moly please feel free to keep asking more specific q’s. i am more than happy to answer

What was the hardest part about going through the treatment?

And how did your partial hospitalization work? Did you stay some days and go home the rest?

the hardest part is that even afterwards, i still have a lot of recovery to do. i began to show signs of upswing, but then, my insurance stopped paying for treatment about a week after the death of one of my grandparents who effectively co-parented me as a kid, and i slipped back into symptoms. unfortunately, paying out of pocket wouldn’t be possible for me ($300/day), so i had to stop treatment and go back to work.

rn i’m still doing a lot of work - i see my outpatient therapist once a week and i’m also in emotions anonymous because i found the group talkback “sharing” type of therapy to be the most helpful for me. i’m also looking into a specialized clinic of doctors in my area who deal with my specific diagnosis (it’s a doozy) to see if they can help me with the medication aspect, because right now i don’t have a psychiatrist prescribing meds so it’s just been my general practitioner dr, who has recommended i seek more specialized med management. it’s a LOT to keep track of lol

PHP program was different for me than some. most of the clinics in our area focus on both psych related illnesses and co-recurring tracks (this means those of us who struggle with addiction/drug and alcohol related issues and mental health issues from what i understand) with a major focus on co-recurring and detox.

in my case i was on the psych track bc while i did struggle with some drug stuff (i’m working on sobriety right now) it was determined that my episode was more mental health than drug related. so in my case, i drove to the center and did a rigorous therapy program for 8 hrs a day and then went home - my apartment or very occasionally my parents house, wherever i felt most comfortable and safe that day. (i’m very lucky to have a strong support system that helped me through this.)

i do think some patients did stay there, though, and i also know there was an ‘ambulatory detox’ facility for some patients who were on the co-recurring track. i attended some co-recurring sessions out of my own request a few times because i had some questions and wanted to get their perspectives in group sessions, but other than that i don’t know as much about that track.

don't be jelly i was a handmaiden of satan in another life

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