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oh boy, do i have a long list. kids bullied me, teachers bullied me, i've dealt with a lot of bullshit.

in elementary and middle school (same district), i was mercilessly bullied all the time. i had dandruff and i was a poor kid so kids always said that i had lice. i can't count how many times the school nurse had to check my hair because kids were pretending to freak the fuck out about it. there were also rumors that i was a bisexual rapist he-shefreak (people actually believed that i had a penis and a vagina. idk why???) because i have a unisex name and wasn't particularly girly. at one point, a kid in my class actually had lice and gave it to me. sometimes i wonder if it was on purpose. the lice bullying got so much worse after i went back to school after finally getting rid of it. fucking humiliating. (it never stopped even in late middle school.)

in 5th grade, my teacher stopped me pre-recess to tell me off about "being gay." it was a sin, it was disgusting, it's no wonder kids don't like me. she also believed other kids that i didn't bathe and bought me this big bag of soap and shampoo and shit (not the same day but at least she had the courtesy to keep me after class). my family was poor so my parents were excited about free shit but geez, mom and dad, i was embarrassed!

in 6th grade, the bullying continued in middle school. no teachers bullied me but the kids got worse. i remember leaving my lunch to go to the bathroom one day and later i ended up shitting myself (tried to make it to the bathroom during class, dumb bowels gave up right when i was going to pull my pants down :( ). i was so embarrassed that i just sat in the stall and cried until a teacher came by saying that someone complained about the smell. only one girl came in the bathroom during that time so that seemed really suspicious that she told a teacher. i could have been taking a monster shit, someone could have forgotten to flush, whatever. you know what else? after that teacher came and got me, she took me to... some staff room, a storage room or something, to wait for my parents. at that point, class was over and kids were going to their next class. one of my bullies fucking broke into the room to laugh at me. somehow, they knew where i was, and they knew what happened. i was fucking humiliated. i'm abso-fucking-lutely positive that someone slipped laxatives or something into my food. surprisingly, no one made fun of me specifically for shitting myself, but everyone "knew" that i was a gross, unhygienic freak.

in 7th grade, one of my teachers kept intentionally losing my work and then telling me he was going to fail me. it couldn't have been other students sabotaging me because it never happened before (my grades were great), and it didn't matter how i turned my work in. (my table putting their work in a pile and the teacher collecting it, me handing it directly to my teacher and begging him not to lose it, etc.) in EVERY other class, i had a's and b's, but in his classes, i either "never turned anything in" or he had nothing but complaints.

in 8th grade, i dealt with another teacher like that (but she intentionally graded me down and constantly told me that i didn't know anything about x, y and z. she was my english teacher so she made me really fucking confused about grammar rules), but i won't go into detail. the kids got so much worse this year. i was still a "creepy double-genitaled homofag molester" so kids definitely used that for pity parties. i never got detention or anything (my teachers didn't tell my parents anything) but my teachers treated me like i was a potential rapist and a psychopathic delinquent.

kids would claim that i stole their lunch and i would get interrogated, and shit like that. there were multiple times when kids accused me of writing threatening notes to them or drawing unflattering pictures of them (not gonna lie, i drew something once. i drew them as shitty slutty-looking animus talking about how bitchy they were and laughed while i drew it. no one saw it but me having fun was SUSPECT AS FUCK. i tore it up though), and teachers would actually take ALL OF US out into the hall and everyone would go through my bag. kids would tear up my drawings and my homework, throw my books around, just destroy my shit and i would get no apology. if they didn't find anything, i was probably just good at hiding it, it was just impossible for me to be a victim.

some of my teachers even defended me against my bullies because i was their star pupil and kids put so much fucking effort into turning them against me. one kid made my math teacher hate me for the most bullshit fucking reason. you know what he did? he drew two stick figures fucking and claimed that i "drew a pedo raping him" even though i was a weeaboo piece of shit that only drew dumb anime people and wolves. she fucking bought it. she loved me, she loved that i was soooo much ahead of my classmates (we did some personalized scantron math tests and i was a few grades ahead), she loved that i was a nice, respectful student. that didn't mean anything compared to a shitty fucking 10-second stick figure drawing. that broke my fucking heart and i gave up completely after that. none of my teachers cared, all i was to them was a worthless delinquent.

i ended up getting kicked out for a bullshit reason (right at the end of the year so there was no point in switching schools) and my parents FINALLY fucking sent me to another district. i never told them everything that happened, but i came home crying just about everyday. i would constantly fake being sick and skip school (or just skip class). i never talked about having friends because my friends were either (a) bullied relentlessly until they abandoned me because they couldn't put up with it anymore, or (b) just bullies pretending to be my friends so they could hurt me.

i went to high school in a different city and different district and it was amazing. i wasn't popular, but no one bullied me. i was (and still am) socially inept as fuck but people treated me with respect. they complimented my artwork/writing, they begged to copy my homework, they defended me when the Class Douchebag was a dick to me. no one even gave a shit about my dandruff, some kids noticed and gave suggestions. "oh man, dandruff is the worst, have you tried xyz?" the only bullshit i dealt with was asshole teachers (who were shitty to everyone) or douchebags i had dumb freshman crushes on. i even came out after a while and anyone who was openly hateful was told to go fuck themselves by kids who liked/tolerated me.

i had one of my e/m school bullies try to add me on facebook. it felt horrible. her message was something like "lmao! haven't seen you since middle school wats up? :]]" i wasn't sure if it was her being a major bitch or her not remembering who i was, but i blocked her, changed my name to a fake one, and felt really shitty.

i'm one of the anons upthread who mentioned bullying

a lot of this happened to me as well but i honestly don't have the emotional strength to write it out. you get major, major props for being able to talk about it, and i'm so sorry this happened to you.

thanks, i'm sorry this kind of bullshit happened to you too. no one should deal with bullying.

my life was fucking ruined because of those fucks so i'm vocal about what's happened to me when it's relevant. i would never mention the shitting thing with my name attached though, for obvious reasons. :( i felt physically sick just typing that part out.

what i really can't comprehend is why teachers would join in on bullying.

ignoring/denying that kids bully each other is bad enough, why would you torment a child yourself? how much of a sad, sociopathic human being do you have to be to do that? it's fucking sick and anyone fucked up enough to do that shouldn't be allowed around children imho.

that last part is what i wonder, too. i'm convinced that some people are just that awful. not "evil" since i don't believe in it but just so completely ruined and poisonous inside that the only thing that makes them feel better is making other people more miserable than they are. and they're terrified of retaliation so it pretty much has to be people unable to defend themselves, so basically, kids.

you should have spammed the fuck out of her first for being such a forgetful bitch for what happened to you. but good for you on responding quickly to the bullshit and kicking her ass to the curb and blocking her.

but you got the revenge on them by not letting them fuck you over because of some bullshit juvenile reason they had since you're able to speak out about it, call out their shitty behaviour for what it is and manage to still have friends/people who like you. keep fighting a good fight and if you ever see those bullies in public idk toss a drink in their face or walk away from them knowing these people fucking FAILED.

i probably would have if getting the message didn't upset me so much and give me a panic attack. my teachers can't ream my ass for facebooking! as much as they would probably love to, for me being "mean" to someone who wants to be my "friend."

i dunno, i'm still pretty socially awkward so i don't feel like i've "won" yet. it's not like i went to harvard afterwards and now i have a great job and yadda yadda yadda. i know at least 3 of the girls who taunted me (including the dumb bitch who added me on facebook) became white trash teen moms who work at mcdonalds and have deadbeat boyfriends, so at least i didn't throw my life away.

i live at least a half hour away so i doubt i'll see any of them. i've only seen two people from middle school at my high school and haven't seen anyone else since. one of them tried to start shit about me but no one cared since it was LOL ANON'S GOT LICE WHAT A GROSS BITCH shit and i heard that she apparently ran away from home to stay with some friends and i only saw her for a few weeks, so i guess her parents took her back or something? the other person was a guy who joined in on the bullying to fit in and he didn't talk to me or even look at me (he was in one of my classes).

lol are you still in high school

don't do this here

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