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[(Anonymous)]

what's the worst thing anyone's ever done to you?

[(Anonymous)]

Tried to blame to blame me for their supposed "suicide attempt" when I told them I didn't consider them a friend and didn't want anything to do with them.

They were a creepy, sleazy, obsessive, openly racist, bigoted asshole. Their plan backfired because I didn't care what they did to themselves at all. To be honest, though, I don't believe they ever truly made the attempt. Nothing will convince me that they were anything but a pathological liar.

[(Anonymous)]

Someone told me I have a victim complex. I'm a survivor of molestation, physical/verbal abuse, and neglect among other things. So that really pissed me off.

cw: animal abuse

[(Anonymous)]

Sent me pictures of kittens getting crushed and dead/mutilated dogs.

I'm never modding again.

Re: cw: animal abuse

[(Anonymous)]

ew

rpers can be crazy fucks

Re: cw: animal abuse

[(Anonymous)]

holy shit

even in my most sour moments with mods i have never stooped that low, what the fuck

[(Anonymous)]

said that i was "elder abusing" him.

he was my dad. i was in middle school and depressed.

[(Anonymous)]

i dealt with quite a bit of bullying throughout elementary to early college, but the one thing that sticks out for me is when i was a kid my younger brother held a knife to my neck.

never been good with anything sharp coming near me since.

[(Anonymous)]

my mom told me i couldn't take some of my childhood things because they reminded her of when she loved me

[(Anonymous)]

when i first started growing some facial hair my cousin set it on fire with his lighter to impress his douchebag friends

fortunately no permanent damage but it scared the hell out of me

[(Anonymous)]

a young girl fell in love with me and got super creepy about it, and when i didn't return their affections and shut them out of my life they proceeded to tell me they were going to murder my boyfriend so they could marry me, sent me death threats, suicide threats, hacked several image/email accounts and deleted everything out of there, hacked my journal and instant messenger and posed as me and ruined several of my friendships, and basically e-stalked and harassed me for 5+ years, among other things

[(Anonymous)]

online: had an rp parter who basically brainwashed me into thinking rp with him was The Most Important thing in the world (i was 12 at the time, though I was pretending to be older and very easily manipulated). i was forced into playing things I wasn't comfortable with (smut -- like really explicit, kinky smut) and when I dropped him, he spammed me with death & rape threats and stalked me for years. He still talks about me sometimes (I'm 19 now, he's in his late twenties) and tries to make out he's the victim and bemoans ~how our friendship ended~

[(Anonymous)]

my rapist continued to stalk me on social media for years after. even once i got the guts up to tell him to fuck off, i still find his IP on my pages sometimes and get vague threatening messages.

[(Anonymous)]

my psychiatrist unironically called me broken garbage over the phone for forgetting about an appointment.

it's not the worst thing by far but it sticks with me because i told her about all the worst things and she used them against me for really petty reason.

cw: rape

[(Anonymous)]

I drank too much at a party and went to lie down on the hostess' bed. When I came to, a close mutual friend of ours had gotten into bed with me and worked his hand down my pants.

tw: abuse, suicide.

[(Anonymous)]

my ex-gf emotionally and verbally abused me. i'm surprised i got out of it when i did.

she then proceeded to get with someone else 2 weeks later, but recently was dumped. she's got her sights set on someone new. she's toxic and i honestly hope she goes through with her "suicide threats" one day.

[(Anonymous)]

i have an eating disorder and feel really terrible at the little bit of extra chub i have

one christmas my brother, sister, and i got matching digital cameras. about a year later i had misplaced mine and i found one, thought it was mine, and turned it on

it was my brothers, and it turned out he'd filled up the memory card filming me while i was unaware from a distance. the videos were all of him zooming in on my face, and then scrolling around to various parts of my body that have flab and zooming in further and lowly snickering to himself. one of the clips was on christmas morning when we got the cameras, and in it i could hear him and my grown-ass aunt (who isn't thin herself by the way) laughing at me while specifically filming me unaware from a distance.

it's been four years probably since i found that and i still think about it sometimes. recently my brother told me i wasn't fat (i was upset because our sister had called me a "fat bitch" because she has a habit of joke-fighting with people and throwing random insults at them while she does, it's hard to explain her sense of humor) and then told me "i think you've actually lost a lot of weight recently." i didn't think about it at the time but now i can't stop thinking about those fucking videos i found and wondering why he did it, and if he's secretly still laughing at me or what. it fucking haunts me to this day.

tw: sexual abuse

[(Anonymous)]

i was bullied so bad in elementary school that it got to the point some school staff were in on it. arbitrary rules were sometimes made for me or i was excluded from activities because of some imagined transgression, which was always ludicrous to the staff who liked me because i was the quietest kid ever. i can't even tell you how many times my locker was broken into (lock cut off, so it couldn't have been one of the kids) and my stuff thrown everywhere. sometimes it was torn up/missing entirely, which meant that sometimes i didn't have homework/classwork i was supposed to turn in, which meant that my grades slipped. my mom was pissed and took this one teacher's side, who told her i didn't do anything and was always talking back in class, so i had no recourse there.

one year i wasn't allowed to go to the restroom alone for some reason and the teacher always sent this one girl with me, who insisted on watching me pee and would sometimes touch me during/after, and then would tell the other girls how "dirty" my panties were and how bad i made the bathroom smell every time i went in there. she'd often go on about how gross i was while i was using it too, and how i didn't wipe enough and had too much hair (so i had to be disgusting all the time) and stuff.

i've never said anything to anyone (other than my ex and my wife) about this because even to this day, i don't understand how anyone could do any that to another person, or how a kid could be that messed up. it amazes and scares me.

cw: rape

[(Anonymous)]

An ex of mine who was so awful that among my friends he is deemed "The Asshole" and doesn't even get to have a name any longer for what he did.

First, he attempted to rape me. Only thing that prevented it was a well timed kick to the crotch. I claimed it was an "accidental" spasm of my bad knee (it doesn't do that, but I do have a bad knee) which was likely the only thing that kept me from being hurt by it.

I'll admit, I was a total bitch and broke up with him on his birthday, purposely because he'd said that another girl had done that and he thought it was awful. I actually put off breaking up with him for a time because after everything else, I heard what had happened to other girls who broke up with him. Instead I ignored his calls and let it get around to others who knew him that I had picked up some habits that he didn't like in a girl (drinking and smoking) among some other things in hopes that he'd dump me first.

Well, once I finally got the nerve after we broke up he continued to stalk me. Thankfully since he lived in another state this could only be done online. But he was so awfully creepy about it that it was bad enough. I had to change my identity on a daily basis and pretend I didn't know some of our online mutual friends who might blurt out who I was. Still he found me and was very determined to ensure I'd never be able to get online again by pinging my IP a few million times in a matter of seconds which disabled my connection until I restarted my computer. This was in the late 90s, so high speed internet was a rarity as it was and restarting a computer wasn't as fast as it is now.

Eventually I did get his IP address and evidence of what he was doing and passed it along to his ISP. Soon after my computer's hard drive died. Still to this day I highly suspect his attacks on me had something to do with it.

To make matters worse with the hard drive, my computer manufacturer's tech support was so inept that I waited a month for my replacement. This was back when you could still get a local computer tech to come out and replace it, so it should have taken a few days, tops. I was in college at the time, so a computer was rather necessary for writing papers and the only computer lab open late was a decently long walk. This was in the winter in Ohio, so not exactly a fun walk.

During one of my trips to the lab I was able to get in touch with a couple of friends online and arrange something to try and put a stop to this. I had already attacked one of the things he valued highly (his internet connection, he was always bragging about it) and then got my friends to get the other (his chat room which he claimed was perfectly secure from takeovers which people did on that IRC network for shits and giggles). My friends got it and pretty much held it ransom with the demand being to leave me alone.

He met their demand. I've not heard from him since, though I did get an email a few years back from someone with his name and that freaked me out and I thought I was going to have to change my online identity again, but didn't get anything since then.

So yeah, a bit of me being an asshole back to him, but I felt I had to do that just to get it to stop. And that poor computer with the broken hard drive never worked the same after that and had to be replaced entirely about a year later. Yeah, I'm still mad about that.

tw: sexual assault/abuse

[(Anonymous)]

i was molested on an almost daily basis from the ages of 8 to 13 by a relative who babysat me and my siblings after school. then when i was 18 i was gang raped by my roommate's boyfriend and three of his friends in my own apartment. i'm nearly 30 now and have been in therapy over this stuff for the better part of a decade but it still sticks with me.

[(Anonymous)]

Significantly less terrible than a lot of this thread and there are probably worse things that aren't coming to mind, but my older sister used to encourage her friends and boyfriend to make fun me when I was in middle school and openly called me a crackwhore in front of them because she wanted me to stop watching a movie I was really excited to get when she wanted to use the TV.

Another thing I remember really vividly was when I was really young, maybe 4 or 5, I was running in a circle around my dad when the family was out buying a car because I was a weird kid. Instead of grabbing my shoulder or something and telling me to stop, he just shoved me over outside in the parking lot in front of everyone, including the salesman and the other customers. Even though it was a long time ago, I remember feeling absolutely humiliated. He didn't even take a second glance at me when I started crying and kept talking to the salesman like nothing had happened.

cw: bullying, laxatives??, homophobia/transphobia, mention of rape (no actual rape), tl;dr, etc

[(Anonymous)]

oh boy, do i have a long list. kids bullied me, teachers bullied me, i've dealt with a lot of bullshit.

in elementary and middle school (same district), i was mercilessly bullied all the time. i had dandruff and i was a poor kid so kids always said that i had lice. i can't count how many times the school nurse had to check my hair because kids were pretending to freak the fuck out about it. there were also rumors that i was a bisexual rapist he-shefreak (people actually believed that i had a penis and a vagina. idk why???) because i have a unisex name and wasn't particularly girly. at one point, a kid in my class actually had lice and gave it to me. sometimes i wonder if it was on purpose. the lice bullying got so much worse after i went back to school after finally getting rid of it. fucking humiliating. (it never stopped even in late middle school.)

in 5th grade, my teacher stopped me pre-recess to tell me off about "being gay." it was a sin, it was disgusting, it's no wonder kids don't like me. she also believed other kids that i didn't bathe and bought me this big bag of soap and shampoo and shit (not the same day but at least she had the courtesy to keep me after class). my family was poor so my parents were excited about free shit but geez, mom and dad, i was embarrassed!

in 6th grade, the bullying continued in middle school. no teachers bullied me but the kids got worse. i remember leaving my lunch to go to the bathroom one day and later i ended up shitting myself (tried to make it to the bathroom during class, dumb bowels gave up right when i was going to pull my pants down :( ). i was so embarrassed that i just sat in the stall and cried until a teacher came by saying that someone complained about the smell. only one girl came in the bathroom during that time so that seemed really suspicious that she told a teacher. i could have been taking a monster shit, someone could have forgotten to flush, whatever. you know what else? after that teacher came and got me, she took me to... some staff room, a storage room or something, to wait for my parents. at that point, class was over and kids were going to their next class. one of my bullies fucking broke into the room to laugh at me. somehow, they knew where i was, and they knew what happened. i was fucking humiliated. i'm abso-fucking-lutely positive that someone slipped laxatives or something into my food. surprisingly, no one made fun of me specifically for shitting myself, but everyone "knew" that i was a gross, unhygienic freak.

in 7th grade, one of my teachers kept intentionally losing my work and then telling me he was going to fail me. it couldn't have been other students sabotaging me because it never happened before (my grades were great), and it didn't matter how i turned my work in. (my table putting their work in a pile and the teacher collecting it, me handing it directly to my teacher and begging him not to lose it, etc.) in EVERY other class, i had a's and b's, but in his classes, i either "never turned anything in" or he had nothing but complaints.

in 8th grade, i dealt with another teacher like that (but she intentionally graded me down and constantly told me that i didn't know anything about x, y and z. she was my english teacher so she made me really fucking confused about grammar rules), but i won't go into detail. the kids got so much worse this year. i was still a "creepy double-genitaled homofag molester" so kids definitely used that for pity parties. i never got detention or anything (my teachers didn't tell my parents anything) but my teachers treated me like i was a potential rapist and a psychopathic delinquent.

kids would claim that i stole their lunch and i would get interrogated, and shit like that. there were multiple times when kids accused me of writing threatening notes to them or drawing unflattering pictures of them (not gonna lie, i drew something once. i drew them as shitty slutty-looking animus talking about how bitchy they were and laughed while i drew it. no one saw it but me having fun was SUSPECT AS FUCK. i tore it up though), and teachers would actually take ALL OF US out into the hall and everyone would go through my bag. kids would tear up my drawings and my homework, throw my books around, just destroy my shit and i would get no apology. if they didn't find anything, i was probably just good at hiding it, it was just impossible for me to be a victim.

some of my teachers even defended me against my bullies because i was their star pupil and kids put so much fucking effort into turning them against me. one kid made my math teacher hate me for the most bullshit fucking reason. you know what he did? he drew two stick figures fucking and claimed that i "drew a pedo raping him" even though i was a weeaboo piece of shit that only drew dumb anime people and wolves. she fucking bought it. she loved me, she loved that i was soooo much ahead of my classmates (we did some personalized scantron math tests and i was a few grades ahead), she loved that i was a nice, respectful student. that didn't mean anything compared to a shitty fucking 10-second stick figure drawing. that broke my fucking heart and i gave up completely after that. none of my teachers cared, all i was to them was a worthless delinquent.

i ended up getting kicked out for a bullshit reason (right at the end of the year so there was no point in switching schools) and my parents FINALLY fucking sent me to another district. i never told them everything that happened, but i came home crying just about everyday. i would constantly fake being sick and skip school (or just skip class). i never talked about having friends because my friends were either (a) bullied relentlessly until they abandoned me because they couldn't put up with it anymore, or (b) just bullies pretending to be my friends so they could hurt me.

i went to high school in a different city and different district and it was amazing. i wasn't popular, but no one bullied me. i was (and still am) socially inept as fuck but people treated me with respect. they complimented my artwork/writing, they begged to copy my homework, they defended me when the Class Douchebag was a dick to me. no one even gave a shit about my dandruff, some kids noticed and gave suggestions. "oh man, dandruff is the worst, have you tried xyz?" the only bullshit i dealt with was asshole teachers (who were shitty to everyone) or douchebags i had dumb freshman crushes on. i even came out after a while and anyone who was openly hateful was told to go fuck themselves by kids who liked/tolerated me.

i had one of my e/m school bullies try to add me on facebook. it felt horrible. her message was something like "lmao! haven't seen you since middle school wats up? :]]" i wasn't sure if it was her being a major bitch or her not remembering who i was, but i blocked her, changed my name to a fake one, and felt really shitty.

[(Anonymous)]

refused to call an ambulance when their fucking dogs attacked me and damaged my femoral artery (although at the time i wasn't aware i was injured that badly. i was in shock), tried to lie about the circumstances of the attack to the sheriff deputies and animal control when i was finally able to get home and get them on scene, and harassed me after i pressed charges until i started carrying a firearm openly in my yard and made it very clear i wasn't afraid to use it if they pushed the issue. plus their dogs weren't current on their rabies shots, and they continued to let them roam free even after close to a thousand dollars in fines overall for all of their violations.

never paid a dime toward my extensive medical expenses and were too fucking poor to be worth trying to sue. one of the happiest days of my life was when they got evicted by the county for a zoning violation and their piece of shit druggie fiance got his ass arrested and hauled away to prison.

[(Anonymous)]

when i was eight my parents broke up and my mom moved out, and my dad told me that my mom (who was dealing with major depression and had attempted suicide in the past, which i knew about) was definitely going to kill herself without him there to watch her, and that one day i would go over to visit and discover her dead body. i freaked out and went crying to my mom about it, asking if it was true. she was furious at him and yelled at him for it, and he in turn yelled at me and said i was manipulative and selfish and had only told my mom what he'd said because i was trying to drive them further apart.

cw: sexual asault

[(Anonymous)]

I had some of the bullying shit like other anons had in their stories, but despite how extensive the bullying was I wouldn't say it was the worst.

A few people might recognise this story because I told it before.

the tl;dr of it is that I was guilted into dating a boy, boy proceeds to attempt to control everything. How I wear my hair, what colour I kept my hair, what I ate, how I dressed, who I hugged, how I said hello to friends, when I'd throw things out, when I slept, when I played games... shit like that.

He did things like slit his wrists because I was talking too much to other people and then tell me about it, or forcing his hand down my pants when I was trying to play video games and then complain at me for not 'forcing him to stop' instead of just batting his hand away repeatedly.

Eventually I was taking a nap and while I was sleeping he used my hand to jerk himself off and rubbed his penis on my breasts. I woke up while he was doing it and just froze, waited until he was done and left. I had to sit with him for another hour before I could go home.

I broke contact with him. During that breaking contact though he made a point of telling me 'he's met this other girl who treats him so much better why can't I treat him like that,' 'he didn't realise I was asleep,' and 'no one will treat me better than he did.'

It never actually occurred to me how fucked the other things were until years afterward.