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I thought it was a chocolate chip

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are you a lazy fuck? a hambeast who can't stop eating? a spoiled princess who wants everything handed to her? a disgusting slob wallowing in your own filth?

confess your sins here.

i want entirely too much. too many rp partners, psls, and physical objects. if i made more money than i do i'd be one of those hoarders i just know it

i try to work hard for my things and never feel entitled, but i just dont know how to feel satisfied with what i do have

I feel you, anon.

i'm a yaoi

i look at a shitton of porn every day. not even to get off or masturbate or anything, i just like looking at porn and tits a lot, they make me happy.

laziness, in a way. i have trouble getting and staying motivated despite having all these ideas and being able to come up with more on the fly and plan fun shit to do all day erry day

it's like i eventually get to a point and say "eh" and most of it stays in my imagination

this is probably due to some mental health stuff though

i do the same thing. i come up with ideas for interesting things to write or draw but instead of actually doing them i just sit on my ass watching netflix or something

usually it's because i think of a million other things that need done before i can focus on my drawing/writing and they all seem insurmountable so nothing ever gets done

i have a severe persecution complex. oh noez i have RESPONSIBILITIES!!! that i have to do EVERY WEEK!!! SO STRESSFUL!!!

basically i am a huge selfcentred baby

i'm really vain and tend to think of myself as better than a lot of other people

people don't notice because my vanity tends to manifest in me trying to help them in various ways (physically, by giving advice, etc.)

i'm a huge underachiever because i want the free time to spend doing stupid things that won't help me live a comfortable life in my later years.

i hate washing my hair. i like taking showers but i hate the whole process of getting it all wet then being freezing and putting stuff in it so it doesn't frizz and blowdrying it. it's such an annoying process for me.

i want more anonymous rp partners for fucked up psls because i'm too embarrassed to hit up my other rp friends for it and/or they suck so i don't want to thread with them.

aggressive over-eating

tho i feel like this problem is beyond that of a normal fatty and straight into the realm of potential mental illness

i squander money on useless garbage because i am constantly thinking of things i want to "collect" usually worthless plastic crap

first it was action figures from a certain line, then my little ponies, then anime figures, then stuffed animals, and now it's action figures again. i also decided i want to re-collect all the stupid happy meal toys i used to have as a kid that i got rid of years ago

might be okay if i decided to sell these collections after i lost interest in them but i never do. hoarders here i come

i've spent so much money on this trash the past few years it makes me a little sick b/c that's money i could have put to student loans or a new car or a house or something

but having these collections of things just feels so good whenever i think about them and i can't stop myself from wanting more

stoner

my relationship with food is awful. i either go full hambeast and eat huge packs of shit or live off baby spinach for a week at a time. neither of these help my health or my self-image

it started out just being because of my money situation-- i wouldn't have enough to eat enough for a while, and then i'd gorge myself once i had money, but now it's become a pattern i can't break out of.

I spend a lot of time making plans for myself and the future, to work out and start something new on YouTube or Tumblr or something. I'd say 50% of it is me being lazy and finding an excuse, like I don't have the money to buy a gym membership and it rains a lot around this time. The other 50% is me telling myself that I'm literally the worst and regardless of how much I try, I won't get anywhere.

That last part's the same for everything I do, really. I want more than I'm motivated to reach for.

i drink at least 2 alcoholic beverages a day

I'm one of the most prideful people I know. I'm way too smart to be stuck working a minimum wage retail job and I know it, which wouldn't be so bad if I could just accept the fact that thousands of other college students either just as or more intelligent than I are stuck in the exact same type of job, but no. I practically bullied my manager into giving me a promotion and now I've taken to sneering down at all the regulars that used to give me issues.

I'd feel less weird about it but so many people view being aggressive and pushy about my career as a good thing.

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(Anonymous) - 2014-05-13 03:41 (UTC) - Expand

I just have zero self control and it manifests itself in a lot of ways, but mostly in 1) food, I can't even have a bag of chips in the house or else i'll eat the whole thing, 2) alcohol, I never know how to stop. I don't drink and drive but I'll go out with the intention of having one beer and I'm buying everybody shots before i know it and 3) men, I can't go out anywhere without at least trying to hook up with a guy. Making out with two strangers when I go out is about my baseline

I hate it and wish i could change but i feel like it's hopeless

da

(Anonymous) - 2014-05-13 03:50 (UTC) - Expand

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(Anonymous) - 2014-05-13 04:03 (UTC) - Expand

eh probably laziness and procrastination on things i don't want to do. and workaholic tendencies for things i am into. when i really get into a project i don't want to do anything else, including eating or sleeping. such a waste of time.

i honest to god can't tell which of my vices are me and which are my depression fucking with my head chemistry, for the most part-- all the apathy about filth and feeling bad all the time and eating shitty food because i don't have the energy to make something not awful and drinking to combat my insomnia are symptoms, like as not

but i do buy things i don't need to make myself happier, which is probably not depression & just me making bad life choices

I almost never finish what I start. Sometimes I stop at the idea level. Like, "I'm going to do X today!" And then I just... don't. I'll either find something else to do (halfway) or fuck around on the internet or whatever.

If I do finish something, I feel good for about two seconds before I realize that, hey, this isn't what normal people would consider to be an accomplishment.

i smoke and drink too much. stopped rping, now it's hard to get back into a hobby i miss. i really should stop for health reasons, but it's been going for a few good years now.

yeah, i gotta break addiction.

Rewriting. I haven't been able to get anything original finished in years because I keep going back to edit and coming up with different ideas for shit. Thank god I'm not relying on it for income.

Oddly, RP is a lot easier for me not to overthink. You hit "send," you've gotta let go. I should start doing blog serials or some shit.

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