after some rl trauma my tastes shifted, and what I needed to satisfy me in fiction came from a different place. I gravitated toward canons and characters that addressed certain themes I felt needed to be acknowledged by the setting or the character in order for me to engage with them.

i also had to accept that some things are just going to be a miss for me forever. i can't do children's media or things aimed at a younger audience anymore, even the ones that people say tackle darker or heavier themes. there is a disconnect that i can't bridge anymore and i lose interest immediately.