yeah, i felt something close to this for the 9-ish years i was out of rp until recently. rp just didn't matter to me anymore and wasn't something i was about to waste my time on when there were way more important things happening, basically? ultimately in my case i don't think this was even a bad thing because of the specific reasons i felt like this, but if you want to come back to rp and get back the feelings you had for it before, i wonder if trying to get into other hobbies first would help? maybe others that aren't so full-on fictional, or something that feels more grounded in the real world? i'm just guessing, but it seems like that could help your brain open up to things that are just for fun again.