i thought i could finally afford to take x big life step with recurring huge monthly expenses, and i can on paper, but immediately lots of things started going wrong (like $700 extra in one month wrong) and now my parents are having to front me rent until things stabilize and it feels so, so bad

i feel like a parasite and i'm so humiliated that i didn't see the worst case scenario coming. i know they're not judging me but i feel bad and i know it's a massive privilege and i'd be shit out of luck if they weren't able to help me and i feel guilty for having that help when i have many friends who don't have that kind of safety net and would have to be in a lot of card debt right now if they were in my shoes

basically it feels like a moral failing to be in this situation and it feels like a second moral failing to have help that i can even receive in this situation